LUCAS ALEXANDER

Philosophy Section 1

articles - poetry

...and thoughts on this `n´that

(Feel free to send me YOUR thoughts about any subject or topic)

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WISDOM

- Intelligent people discuss ideas

- Average people discuss current events

- Bad people discuss other people

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A great Buddhist monk said to me recently: "Those who tell lies about you to other people -
maybe to justify their own actions - are in reality lying to themselves and to the universe,
and they will prevent themselves from reaching a further step towards
Nirvana in this lifetime"

I am a thinker.

Some would even say that I think too much.
But I HAVE to think...and to think big.
I have to be amazed and to take a stand in life.

YOU KNOW, I often wonder what makes people do what they do and act and react the way they do ?
So many people are rude and rather nasty to others and they don´t think in psychological terms
(who is this person I´m talking to, what is behind him/her) - how to be a caring and decent human being.
In other words they don´t try to look behind what´s really inside the soul of their fellow man.

GlobaliZation ! Cruel incarnations ! No limitations ! Governmental persuasions !

I am often in shock. Seeing is believing, right ? BUT, well, for me....sometimes
SEEING is NOT to be BELIEVED !
What happens in "the life" is quite often a bit more drastic than anything you see on film.
Everywhere you go you might be in the "manipulating danger zone".
In the world of music also.
You have to deal with egotism, old school managers, who even dwell into your private life
and get´s way too close to your personal life, just like the dreadful and ever manipulating tabloid press.
Having been in the press myself, I have seen the most unbelievable stories they have printed which is
completely untrue and totally made up and is the opposite of the truth.....places you haven´t even been to.
Record companies want you to give them a totally mainstream and commercial package of songs which
they can be sure will make them some money. "Where have all the flowers gone"....
.well, my question is: "Where have real ART gone".
Where has TRUTH gone to ? Where can we find someone in business that we can reallly trust ?
Who can we really trust ? Hopefully certain friends and family members, but people in power ???
Can we trust them ? This question is also directed at politicians ?

Who can we trust ??? As Michael Moore says in "Fahrenheit 9/11" (most important film in decades)
"Who´s your daddy ???"

I have to worry about the condition of our planet and politics and human interaction.

I am a philosopher....that is my art. Everything I do is philosophy......and I will write different stuff
down for this page.
Things I think, believe in and hope for !!!

Please send me some of your philosophy...and let me include it on my hompage....
yours and mine and ours !
Let´s connect and speak our minds...becauce the mind is the worlds greatest computer !

AND life is the greatest mystery there is !!!

I have always been fortunate to meet a lot of interesting personalities.

I love people that are different and not so mainstream.

I find it absolutely horrible that the media and our community are trying to force
the population of the world to behave and be and look in a certain limited way.

There seems to be very little room and space for those who are living
different kind of lives. These people that are considered ”less normal” by the
majority of our society.

What is ”NORMAL” anyway !!!

We are all a lil´ crazy in one way or the other !

There are just some well-mannered people who ACTs the part of so-called
"normal people"....and those ”normal-ones” may be considered
NORMAL just becauce they are not very outrageous or different ?!!!

But are not ”well-mannered” at all, if they look down on people who thinks in
another way, or if they are full of judgement and completely narrow minded.

In fact, they might be the toughest business men, or the most hardcore dictators,
school teachers or parents who fills up their children with fear using religion
in a bad way or crazy punishment !!!

You are not allowed to be different in school....cos´ then you will be teased and maybe
even beat up !!!

A child´s school years are extremely important and will leave an eternal impression
on a young person, which will say much about how their lives will be in the future.

Children can actually be some of the cruelest and meanest creatures in the world
to each other....and they can make another child´s life a living hell, if they do not FIT IN !!!

This also goes for grown ups who are working and are trying to fit in on the job.
BUT if they don´t, they can be sure that the others will mock and bad mouth them.
There are too much bickering and backstabbing at most regular jobs.

Especially women...can be outrageously bitchy, ill-tempered and dramatic....
this is also the case in many relationships. Women seem to have NO LIMITS
when it comes to putting a man down and then trying to blame him for her own doing,
especially during her period !!!

Men can be totally out of control too, mostly just in other ways,
especially with a low self-esteem and a lack proper upbringing.....

Men are always the most aggressively violent and insane monsters.......
even politicians with power who is making war becauce of financial or oil interests,
but also becauce of their different religious beliefs !

There seem to be no end to the evilness and craziness between human beings.....
from childhood to death........

As long as there are two people on this planet.....there will be hate,
war and jealousy. Some people with a low self-esteem and a bad upbringing,
coming from a chaotic home with alchoholic
or violent parents, or parents who left them to themselves....
are often the ones who end up with the Borderline syndrom :
BPD- Borderline Personality Disorder.
All too many people carry this mental disturbance
around with them....and they are often some of the most charming
but also manipulative and dangerous people you can meet.

See link about: BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER

Luckily there are also more stabil people on this earth....and many of them are people
that are different. Humanitarians, great thinkers, artistic personalities and so on.......................

It´s horrible for me to see how little people are SEEING.......SEEEEEEING.......
and how little people actually
THINK -- and how little people EMBRACE those who may not be what
”TRENDSETTERS” + the media, the politicians - says is
THE RIGHT WAY.....the perfect way of being.......and what
unfortunately becomes OUR CULTURE in 2003 - 2004 - 2005 !!!
I have also personally encountered people who were Borderline people.
It´s like you walk around in denial, because you don´t want to believe
that someone you care about could be diagnosed with this mental disease.

I WILL INCLUDE SOME DANISH LIST MADE BY PSYCHOLOGISTS, WHICH
DEFINES BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER AND NARCISSISTIC
PERSONALITY DISORDER. Soon they will be translated into English.
(For DANISH speaking visitors....see at the bottum of the page)

In this world today, TRUE ART is an exclusive rarity.
Everything is about making money, a lot of selfish egoism
with no talent and reality TV shows !

There is probably nothing I hate more than those tacky Reality-TV shows,
such as Big Brother, Pop/Super Stars, The jungle show, Robinson
and all of those TV programs where real people have to appear
SOUL-NAKED (if not stark naked) to their bone and then to recieve
cruel judgement from their peers or a voting audience.

Nothing must be worse for a young struggeling artist than to appear
on these SuperStar music shows, and then to be judged by some
"famous people", often very commercialized stars or a bit low-life celebrities
...who are sitting there judging the young people
(who are DYING for 15 minutes of manufactured fame)....like cinderella.
I turned down a couple of offers myself, to appear in such shows.
I would NEVER be true to myself, the person I am or my humanitarian
or political beliefs if I would agree to appear in such a show.
It´s the DEATH OF TRUE ART, and I can´t see why people
(also celebrities of a certain standard) would sink to this low level.

These reality shows are the successes of today and people with a different personality
or young artists like myself who is trying to do something out of the mainstream
(with a certain love for SOME of the mainstream though), are standing firm and are refusing
to be pushed around too much on this roller-coaster ride, becauce we have SO MUCH MORE
to give than to be judged by people in public to the sweet delight of the
viewer who are sitting at home enjoying every moment of seeing people´s
emotions when they are voted out of a show, or someone are saying something bad about
a fellow "in-mate" behind their backs in the Big-Brother house !
I know these programs are very popular....also those StarSearch shows, in fact my own
wife appeared on a few of those shows in the jury.....
but I, myself, are writing songs about this theme and I will continue to fight for my
artistic and moral rights.....a fight for freedom to be heard, to be loved for what we
can do without having my laundry washed in front of millions on a TV show.

Louise L. Hay is an extraordinary lady from America who has written a lot of amazing
books about healing, curing all diseases. A lady who can guide you to better living with a
more positive way of thinking, and she tells you that all illnesses has a certain meaning psychologically--
and that it´s caused by yourself from having a wrong and negative attitude towards difficult situations in
your life, wether its terrible experiences, low self-esteem, obesity, fear of things, anger and resentment,
guilt.....you name it.
The most prominent book written by Louise L. Hay is "You can heal your life",
which you should be able to buy anywhere. It´s translated into many languages and can also be found
at libraries and in alternative bookshops, such as the Bodhi Tree bookshop on Melrose in Los Angeles.

Louise Hay, is an amazing woman and you would do yourself, your life and your friends life
a favour by checking
out her wonderful and inspiring books.

The kick-boxing mind-body pioneer

Louise Hay is an author, minister, and publisher whose books have touched millions of lives.
In the 1970s, after several years of counseling work, Ms. Hay compiled a reference guide outlining the
mental components of many physical ailments.
Her book, Heal Your Body, offered positive thought patterns for encouraging health.
Louise was able to put her philosophies into practice when she was diagnosed with cancer.
She developed an intensive program of affirmations, visualization, nutritional cleansing and
psychotherapy.
Within six months, she was completely healed of cancer.
She continues to develop and publish materials on the process of inner healing.
You Can Heal Your Life [see excerpt link below] has been established as a classic in the field of
inner healing.
In this book, Ms. Hay develops a philosophy of healing that rests on a few core principles:
"Every thought we think is creating our future ... We must release the past and forgive everyone ...
We much be willing to begin to learn to love ourselves."
Ms. Hay has successfully applied these principles in her own life, and assisted millions of other people
to do the same. She has written and lectured extensively on the importance of taking control of
our thoughts, and turning to a Higher Power for guidance in our lives.
In The Power Is Within You, Ms. Hay builds on these themes and shares stories of healing from her
own life and those whom she has worked with over the years. Themes of forgiveness -
including self-forgiveness - healing, and prosperity are covered.

Louise L. Hay - wise words of wisdom

1: Listen with love to your body´s messages. It is telling you all you need to know.
2: Think positive, peace-filled, loving thoughts. Every cell in your body responds to each
thought you think.
3: Remember to breathe deeply and fully. Relax your body and mind often during the day.
4: Allow the love from your heart to wash through you and cleanse and heal every part of
your body and Emotions
5: Be Assured that every day, your body´s natural desire is to be healthy, whole,
and complete.
6: Feel the Glorious, dynamic energy that is flowing through you today.
7: Know that your Mind and body are in perfect balance. You are healthy and in
harmony with the universe.
8: Feel privileged To live in the wondrous, magnificent machine that is your body.
9: Inhale the precious breath of life. It is your connection to your Higher power
10: Take loving care of yourself. It gives you joy to do so, and you are worth it!
11: Establish a trusting, loving relationship with your health practitioner, Feel free
to ask any questions about your health.
12: Remember that Vibrant health is your constant companion.
13: Bring into your life every Person, place and thing that you need for your
complete healing.
14: Love every organ, muscle, joint, and cell in your body.
15: Release all negative thinking. Focus on the perfect state of health that
you desire.
16: Take full responsibility for the decisions you make regarding your health.
You are the power and the creator of your life.
17: Know that your body is perfect. It knows how to work, sleep, eat, exercise,
think, drive, play, and learn. What a gift your body is!
18: Remember that you are never alone. Your guardian angels are part
of your life and have helped to keep you healthy since the day you were born.
19: Make a point of looking and feeling as attractive as possible every day.
You´ll feel good – inside and out.
20: Be aware that your higher power is always leading you and guiding you.
Your prayers for good health and healing are always answered.
21: Inject a lot of laughter into your life – it´s one of the best medicines there is !
22: Make sure your internal dialogue is positive. What you think affects every
aspect of your health.
23: Maintain your physical, emotional, and spiritual harmony with the universe
by meditating every day.
24: Remember that regardless of your age (wether you´re an “elder of excellence”
or a young adult), you can take charge of your health and be the best you can be every day !
25: Whenever you leave your home, breathe in the fullness of life and know
that you are safe in the world.
26: When it comes to health decisions, trust your intuition. Listen to that still,
small voice within because it always knows just what to do.
27: Think thoughts that make you feel good. Your emotional and physical
health will be enhanced as a result.
28: Bless all the healers of the world with love appreciate those in both the
conventional and alternative medical worlds. They all have a lot to offer.
29: Choose to release anger in positive constructive ways. Holding anger
inside depresses your immune system.
30: Whenever a difficult health situation arises, know that answers come to
you easily, and you immediately know what to do.
31: Accept the challenges and responsibilities involved in taking care of
your health and healing. Know that you are always supported by life.
32: Rejoice in your body and your sexuality. You are beautiful inside and out.
33: Send love and healing energy to everyone in your world.
You all contribute to the overall health of the planet.
34: Welcome the blissful feeling of a good night´s sleep.
You´ll have pleasant dreams abd wake up refreshed each day.
35: Rejoice in all the many wonderful new advances in health and
healing that we humans have created.
36: Partake in physical activities. Walk briskly, take exercise classes,
swim, bike, run – you´ll love being on the move !
37: Know that it is normal and natural for your to be drawn to healthy food.
Your body feels great.
38: When your friends or family members are having health issues,
be a good listener. Provide a compassionate ear, and offer advice only if asked.
39: Accept perfect health as a natural and normal part of your being.
Send love to every area of your body.
40: Make an effort to change all patterns of criticism – with respect to yourself
AND others. Your mind, body, and soul will feel the positive results.
41: Know that you can feel comfortable in ALL types of weather conditions.
Your health need not suffer when it´s very cold nor when it´s very hot.
42: Before travelling, take the appropriate health precautions – that is, inoculations,
medications, phone numbers of health practitioners. Always be prepared !
43: Rejoice in the magic of the aging process. Love your lines, wrinkles,
and greying hair. They are signs of a life well lived !
44: Seek out recovery options for any unhealthful addictions. Your emotional and
spiritual growth moves beyond these old limitations.

Male Abuse.
How would you guys like to don a dress and then ride a donkey backwards down the main
street of your town? Everyone could line the street snickering and making fun of you.
I doubt if you would even consider it.
Yet, in medieval France, a man who had been physically abused by his wife was forced to do
this so everyone could see how weak he was.

Male abuse by women: is it real?
We probably all accept the fact that both men and women can be the victim of emotional abuse.
The "hen-pecked" man abused by his wife has been the brunt of jokes and cartoons forever.
Physical abuse is another story. In our society we think of women as the victims and men as the
aggressors in physical abuse.

But that is not true. Equally as many, if not more, men are assaulted by their girlfriends
or wives as vice versa.

A 1997 survey conducted among dating couples showed almost 30% of women admitting
that they had used some form of physical aggression against their male partners within
the dating cycle. This runs counter to official documentation of female abuse against men.

Why?

1. Less men report abuse. They are ashamed to report being abused by women.
2. Health care and law enforcement professionals are more likely to accept alternative
explanations of abuse from a man. They will believe other reasons for the presence of bruises
and other signs of injury
3. Our justice system sometimes takes the word of the woman above the word of the man in
abuse cases. It is just more believable that the aggressor was the man, not the woman.
4. Men will tolerate more pain than women. They are more likely to "grin and bear it."
And again, many are ashamed to seek medical help for abuse.
5. Unless a woman uses a weapon (and many do), a woman usually does not have the
strength of a man to inflict serious injury by abuse.

Male victims of violence are not well served in their healing by organizations that teach
hatred towards women
Men face additional barriers in telling our stories of abuse because we have been socialized
to be the "king of the castle", in control of our lives and feelings and to never show our weakness.
It is wrong for any man to be abused. We hope the stories provided below encourage men
who are abused to reach out and end the silence of your pain. You need not be alone in isolation.
Talk to someone you trust and know that you do not deserve to live in a situation where you
are unsafe, unloved or abused.

It is an ongoing struggle to separate the wheat from the chafe, to find the truth locked within
the pain of men's experience of violence. While we wish to sincerely tell the stories men who
have been abused by their female intimate partners, there also exists a culture of denial that
seeks to blame women, especially feminists, for the pain of changing and old stereotypes in
which some men have found safety.

Statistics About Domestic Abuse And Violence Against Men
Very little in known about the actual number of men who are in a domestic relationship
in which they are abused or treated violently by women. In 100 domestic violence situations
approximately 40 cases involve violence by women against men. An estimated 400,000 women
per year are abused or treated violently in the United States by their spouse or intimate partner.
This means that roughly 300,000 to 400,000 men are treated violently by their wife or girl friend.

Why Do We Know So Little About Domestic Abuse And Violence Against Men?
There are many reasons why we don't know more about domestic abuse and violence against men.
First of all, the incidence of domestic violence reported men appears to be so low that it is hard to
get reliable estimates. In addition, it has taken years of advocacy and support to encourage women
to report domestic violence. Virtually nothing has been done to encourage men to report abuse.
The idea that men could be victims of domestic abuse and violence is so unthinkable that many
men will not even attempt to report the situation.

The dynamic of domestic abuse and violence is also different between men and women.
The reasons, purposes and motivations are often very different between sexes.
Although the counseling and psychological community have responded to domestic abuse
and violence against women, there has been very little investment in resources to address
and understand the issues of domestic abuse and violence against men. In most cases,
the actual physical damage inflicted by men is so much greater than the actual physical harm
inflected by women.

The impact of domestic violence is less apparent and less likely to come to the attention of
others when men are abused. For example, it is assumed than a man with a bruise or black
eye was in a fight with another man or was injured on the job or playing contact sports.
Even when men do report domestic abuse and violence, most people are so astonished
men usually end up feeling like nobody believes them.
The Problem With Assumptions About Domestic Abuse And Violence
It is a widely held assumption that women are always the victims and men are always the
perpetrators. Between 50 and 60% of all domestic abuse and violence is against women.
There are many reasons why people assume men are never victims and why women often
ignore the possibility. For one thing, domestic abuse and violence has been minimized,
justified and ignored for a very long time. Women are now more organized, supportive
and outspoken about the epidemic of domestic abuse and violence against women.
Very little attention has been paid to the issue of domestic abuse and violence against men -
especially because violence against women has been so obvious and was ignored for so long.
What Is Domestic Abuse And Violence Against Men?
There are no absolute rules for understanding the emotional differences between men and women.
There are principles and dynamics that allow interpretation of individual situations.
Domestic abuse and violence against men and women have some similarities and difference.
For men or women, domestic violence includes pushing, slapping, hitting, throwing objects,
forcing or slamming a door or striking the other person with an object, or using a weapon.
Domestic abuse can also be mental or emotional. However, what will hurt a man mentally and
emotionally, can in some cases be very different from what hurts a woman. For some men,
being called a coward, impotent or a failure can have a very different psychological impact
than it would on a women. Unkind and cruel words hurt, but they can hurt in different ways
and linger in different ways. In most cases, men are more deeply affected by emotional abuse
than physical abuse.

For example, the ability to tolerate and "brush off" a physical assault by women in front of
other men can in some cases reassure a man that he is strong and communicate to other
men that he can live up to the code of never hitting a woman. A significant number of of
men are overly sensitive to emotional and psychological abuse. In some cases, humiliating
a man emotionally in front of other men can be more devastating than physical abuse.
Some professionals have observed that mental and emotional abuse can be an area where
women are often "brutal" than men. Men on the other hand are quicker to resort to physical
abuse and they are more capable of physical assaults that are more brutal - even deadly!.

Why Does Domestic Abuse Against Men Go Unrecognized?

*Domestic violence against men goes unrecognized for the following reasons:

* The incidence of domestic violence against men appears to be so low that it is hard to
get reliable estimates.
* It has taken years of advocacy and support to encourage women to report domestic violence.
*Virtually nothing has been done to encourage men to report abuse.
* The idea that men could be victims of domestic abuse and violence is so unthinkable to
most people that many men will not even attempt to report the situation.
* The counseling and psychological community have responded to domestic abuse and
violence against women. Not enough has been done to stop abuse against women.
There has been very little investment in resources to address the issues of domestic abuse
and violence against men.
* In most cases, the actual physical damage inflicted by men is so much greater than the
actual physical harm inflected by women. The impact of domestic violence is less apparent
and less likely to come to the attention of others.
* Even when men do report domestic abuse and violence, most people are so astonished,
men usually end up feeling like nobody would believe them. It is widely assumed than a
man with a bruise or black eye was in a fight with another man or was injured on the job
or while playing contact sports. Women generally don't do those things.
What Are The Characteristics Of Women Who Are Abusive And Violent?
The characteristics of men or women who are abusive fall into three categories.
* Alcohol Abuse. Alcohol abuse is a major cause and trigger in domestic violence.
People who are intoxicated have less impulse control, are easily frustrated, have greater
misunderstandings and are generally prone to resort to violence as a solution to problems. Women who abuse men are frequently alcoholics.
* Psychological Disorders. There are certain psychological problems, primarily personality
disorders, in which women are characteristically abusive and violent toward men.
Borderline personality disorder is a diagnosis that is found
almost exclusively with women.
Approximately 1 to 2 percent of all women have a Borderline Personality disorder.
At least 50% of all domestic abuse and violence against men is associated with woman
who have a Borderline Personality disorder. The disorder is also associated with suicidal
behavior, severe mood swings, lying, sexual problems and alcohol abuse.
* Unrealistic expectations, assumptions and conclusions. Women who are abusive toward
men usually have unrealistic expectations and make unrealistic demands of men.
These women will typically experience repeated episodes of depression, anxiety, frustration
and irritability which they attribute to a man's behavior. In fact, their mental and emotional
state is the result of their own insecurities, emotional problems, trauma during childhood
or even withdrawal from alcohol. They blame men rather than admit their problems, take
responsibility for how they live their lives or do something about how they make themselves
miserable. They refuse to enter treatment and may even insist the man needs treatment.
Instead of helping themselves, they blame a man for how they feel and believe that a man
should do something to make them feel better. They will often medicate their emotions
with alcohol. When men can't make them feel better, these women become frustrated and
assume that men are doing this on purpose.

August 4, 2005
Article by: JOAN COLLINS
Britain destroying itself from within. . .
© Copyright - Daily Mail

A great civilization is not conquered from without until it has destroyed itself from within,
said the American historian Will Durrant about ancient Rome. This self-destruction of values
is exactly what is happening in England today.

Yes, I still call the country of my birth England, in spite of the peculiar political correctness
that insists that it be called 'the UK' and that we, its denizens, must be 'Britons'.
Even though the Welsh are proud to call themselves Welsh, as are the Irish and certainly
the Scots, woe betide the Briton who calls himself 'English' -- a much-frowned-upon no-no.
I believe that when a country loses so much respect for itself that it can no longer even be
identified by its historically correct name, insecurity and lack of respect filter down to its
inhabitants.

Recently, I have concluded that London is no longer the 'seat of civilised society' that
the world once considered it to be, and is certainly not the safe city I grew up in.
A particular incident demonstrated the lack of respect and manners that is but a small
example of the horrible, encroaching decay of the country that I love dearly.

My husband Percy and I were at a ball at the Grosvenor House Hotel -- a black-tie event
attended by the socalled 'elite' of the city.
As Percy held the door open to let me through, a 6ft tall, middle-aged, horse-faced male
pushed past me, trod on the hem of my dress and rushed outside to climb into the taxi that
the doorman had waiting for us.

This was a person who should, or at least looked like he should, have known better.
The cause of his behaviour? The awful pervasive disregard that we have for civility today.
Bump accidentally into someone in the street these days and you are soundly cursed.
Look at a poor derelict collapsed in a doorway for more than a second and they'll spit at you.
Surely everyone has experienced the barely suppressed rage lurking behind the faces of a
vast number of car drivers.

We've become the 'Whatcha lookin' at?' culture. Why do young people consider it cool to
be arrogant, swaggering and rude? Why do so many people in England seem so cynical
and self-centred?

I witnessed young, drunken yobs roaming the streets kicking cars, screaming insults,
pushing people and even pushchairs out of their way, attacking each other viciously and
then turning on the police when they tried to maintain order.
THE WHOLE scene evoked the image of hordes of inebriated Vikings sacking devastated
towns. Even during the day, feral mobs roamed the cities with absolute disregard for
anyone else's property or well-being. Traditional virtues of male chivalry and female
propriety were very far from view.

After all, a lack of manners and politeness in a society can only be a reflection of what
the society thinks of itself. It's frightful how being told that you are no good makes you
hate yourself, and hate others. And it's frightful how quickly a whole country of
self-loathers can be bred.

Isn´t it wonderful to eat ?

I love eating. We all have to eat no matter who we are, where we are or what we do.
Eating is something we all have in common, something we all must do to survive, just like sleeping
and obviously drinking.

People can deprive themselves from having sex and many other things that seems to be essential
in this world, but to eat means survival.

However, it can be very unhealthy to eat bad and fattening things although it might be the most tasty.
Fat steaks, sauces, candy, icecream, cakes and chocolate....mmmmm...yummy !
I love everything that is fattening. I have always wondered why they couldn´t invent something
healthy and low-fat that actually taste good and give you cravings for more !

I later discovered that some people in fact like salads, green vegestables and low fat meat
much more than anything fattening, or even desserts and other sweets. Some people just doon´t like
“bad things” ! Good for them.
I have now discovered some delishious low fat foods, and I am happy to say that my favourite dish -
SEAFOOD (shrimps, prawns, lobster.....) are very healthy and lowfat....and with that, I love salad.
Fish is also good, especially salmon which I really like.

I do eat meat....and I love a great big fat steak, and many different kinds too.
I don´t eat it as much as I used to do though.....and I still have a strong weakness for
chocolate and sometimes other sweets.
That´s terrible though. Even though my metabolism has changed quite a lot since my teens,
it´s still a dangerous weight bomb to eat too much of it.

When I was 15, I became very heavy and gained a lot of weight which gave very bad self-esteem.
It was not a happy time for me in my life. I started gaining all this weight after I broke up
with my first girlfriend, Fie, who had to go to Scotland becauce her family was moving there.
We were very happy but had to end the relationship because of this, and I felt so terrible after that.

I was also very unhappy in my 8th school. I loathed this dreadful school and had a horrible time there.
I had also moved around too much and changed school many times.
I was then hanging out with my oldest friend, Lillian, who was 15 years older than me.
With her, I enjoyed a form of escapism seeing the world of showbiz, celebrities, all the things
I wanted for myself later on, but which seemed a little difficult for me at this time since I now
suddenly had gained a considerable amount of weight. I felt very slobby and was full of self denial.
I was always dreaming at that time instead of doing things for myself.
I felt sure that no girl would love me again after Fie....and a lot of thinking was happening
in my inner universe. I just ate steadily for a year. I developed an enormous appetite...........
and THEN - one day, I WOKE up looking at myself saying....WHAT ARE YOU DOING ???

I just had an awakening....I KNEW THEN that it was NOW that I would be loosing weight after almost
a year of being too fat....and I knew that I would NEVER AGAIN put it on !
It was a psychological decission I made within myself.......and I cut my longish slobby hair off and
the next day....YES - the NEXT DAY -- I had already lost 3 kilo´s which is about 6 pounds !!!
I felt totally different....started to think about life, myself and people in a whole new opposite way
than before...and I started to wish for things, that actually came to happpen.
The power of the mind is really extraordinary.

Within 4 months or so I had lost all weight I had gained the year before and then, much much more......
in fact, I had lost way too much all of a sudden, but kept on loosing more weight as people were
complimenting me all the time for my enormous change.
People were soooo enthusiatic about my weightloss and many began to approach me differently
and show interest in ways I had never imagined.
This all gave me a lot of confidance and I became much more vain and started to care about my
appearance and how I looked.

I also became quite popular with girls....and I had an intense period of proving myself to
people with getting many freinds....going out to parties all the time and having changing partners.
That didn´t make me too happy either in the long run...but I started doing a lot of modelling and
theatre (plays, shows ect) which did gave me a great boost.
I was now way too skinny, and one person once described me as a “walking skelletton”
...which actually made me happy !!!
I still enjoyed the party life and I was beginning to miss eating all the nice fattening things
I had done before.
I could NEVER gain weight again, I knew that....but I did start to eat a little more....
as my doctor TOLD me to do so, now being very thin.

I put on a little bit more and reached my ideal weight, but I still wanted to enjoy eating all the
things I desired, so I developed a form of BULIMIA.....”cosy Bulimia”, which set in during
my time modelling.
I discovered to my great joy that I could eat all the things I wanted and then stick a finger in
my throat and throw it all up again. I only did it when I felt I had eaten too much. I felt a security
net under me, knowing I could still ENJOY food but not gain weight from eating.

This also went on for months until I started to tell my close friends about it, who then kicked my
ass and made me take the last step towards freedom (“food freedom”) !
I had to stop this escape too....and felt so horrible after having thrown up. I just had to make
another decission.
Stopping the food disorder (which in my case wasn´t as bad as other people I have now heard
true bulimia stories from)...and getting rid of this food obsession was the next step.
I became much more focussed on myself as a happy and free person, intead of always worrying
about my looks. My girlfriend Mia, was my greatest help in getting rid of this fear of not being
loved when I was too fat......and the my METABOLISM just changed dratically, so that I in fact
COULD eat more than before without having to worry all the time about my weight.

I simply didn´t gain so much like before and I am sure that must also be a psychological decission,
and of cource knowing that all hormones are running wild when you are a teenager.
BUT....I still do care about what I eat...and I think I will always be aware of myself in terms of eating
and never getting overweight again or use any pathetic ways of getting rid of the food.
Food is here to be enjoyed...and we must be grateful for the food we are offered. Just think about all
those who must endure without food and have to struggle to even get it.

In our western world we see too many obese people who eat too much. A substitude for love I suppose.
Basically, you have to take care of it yourself, because noone else can do it for you.
Friends and family might be able to help you enormously and encourage you,
but YOU are the only one who can do it.
I enjoy my food much more nowadays, and for the last 10 years I have kept my weight more or
less the same....and not been too upset if I have gained a kilo more than “a month ago”.

I feel secure with who I am. I am happy to be who I am.....and I think I am very grateful to
have gone through this roller-coaster ride...up and down in weight. I know so much
more about life now, and I feel so much happier now. I know now that it´s a priviledge to love me....
and I say that with great modesty !!!

It is 11:30 am: I should be getting up but I don’t know what for.
Life is really dull and I have nothing important to do.
Yes, I could go to university and inform myself about Greek tragedies, but I’m not really
bothered since I would be
sitting in a room full of thin intellectual people who make me feel like a worthless blob.
No, I will stay home and celebrate my lousy existence.
I haven’t had breakfast yet. I’m dragging myself over to the fridge.
There’s nothing in it.
No wait, there’s an old yogurt and ketchup. That isn’t suitable.
I know I have bread somewhere but it would be too
much trouble chewing it and then I don’t really feel like it after all.

I find a hat to hide my greasy hair and a coat, so noone notices I’m actually
leaving my flat in my sleeping clothes.
Luckily there’s a little grocery store just across the street.
I’m enbarrassed to go there every day but I’m too lazy to
walk down the street and go to the supermarket. I just don’t have the energy,
so I take the shame of buying things in a
little place over the effort of walking 300 meters. I feel bad as I walk along the
aisle with the sweets. I get biscuits, only
to put them back again for they require too much chewing. I walk back to the fridge
department and get some yogurt to
make myself feel better but as I pass by the cakes again I take one along with some
chocolate bars and wine gum.
I quickly cross the street on my way out for I don’t want to run into any of my neighbours
with all that food on my arms.
I make it back without being noticed. Some children behind me scream something about having
stolen food from the shop. I haven’t! I am just in a hurry. I quickly forget them though as I settle
on the couch.
I didn’t even take the hat off but started having cake immediately.
I’m watching televison on the side. Several ghastly talk shows are on and
I’m flipping through the channels to find something that concerns me.
I’m lucky today since there is one with fat people talking about losing weight.
I stay tuned since it concerns me, too. I keep on eating while watching women exposing themselves.
Then one them is really pretty and has lost 50 kilos. I’m envious and I keep on eating and thinking
about my last diet. I didn’t think I looked any better after it but it retrospective
it wasn’t that bad really.
Why did I start eating again? I shouldn’t have done that in the first place.
It is wrong to eat! It is not glamorous to do it.
Noone will ever like me because I’m a blob. I stuff the wine gums although I don’t even
feel like having them, but the chocolate bars and the cake are gone and I definitely can’t
leave any of that crappy food lying around in here for all is going to be different tomorrow.
I will start my day off differently and have a life. I’m starting to feel sick. I can’t move
away from the couch because my stomach feels like a stone and I’m uncomfortable all over.
I have to get that food out again. I’m not bulimic!
It’s just that I have eaten too much and I can’t do anything for hours if it stays in.
I drag myself over and vomit a bunch of chocolaty cakemush out. I do that a few times
until my throat starts hurting.
I feel relieved though. My stomach feels much lighter and I can walk properly again.
My teeth are blunt and some acid is come up my gullet. I don’t want to brush my teeth now
for I know there still is something down there and it must come out.
All of it. I go back to the kitchen and get a bottle of Evian. I drink half of it and rinse my stomach
again and again until I feel it’s tidy enough. I feel bad about wasting such good water but some
things just have to be done and it’s the last time, really.
I’m exhausted and decide to go back to bed. I need some sleep. I can’t really sleep though,
so I just lie around doing crosswords.
It’s starting to bore me. I should think about my next diet.
I get some paper and a pen and plant myself back onto the bed.
How much weight do I want to lose? I don’t know how much I weigh now. I don’t even dare stepping
onto the scale, afraid it will show me some outrageous number I couldn’t even imagine myself.
After all I look like a truck, so it would be suicidal to get a figure. I decide that I will
start my calculations at 70 kg. I know I’m not that heavy but then it’s good to overdo it a bit,
so I can feel a little better after all. I mean even 60 kg would mean I’m a big piece of meat.
Now I need to figure out how much I should lose. I might want to go down to 50 kg but then
I still won’t be fragile. I want people to feel sorry for me and awake motherly feelings, so they are
kind to me and care.
So, I decide I want to go down on 40 kg. All I have to do it stop eating and exercise.
It can’t be that hard. I have done it before.
I will just start exercising tonight and then I will go from there. I decide that I give myself 3 months.
That’s 10 kilos per month.
It should be possible. I just have to set my mind on it and even if I lost a little less each month
it would be ok for I’m not really as heavy as I pretend to be. I fall alseep over my calculations
and wake up again some time in the afternoon. I feel peckish.
For a moment I forget my diet plan and think about what I could eat. I decide for some pasta
with a rich tomato sauce.
I’m good today since I’m actually willing to cook instead of going back to the grocery store.
The diet thoughts keep creeping
up into my mind again but I push them aside and decide to go for it tomorrow. So I cook.
I actually cook for an entire family.
And I eat for an entire family. It’s starting to dawn, so some of my favourite series will be on.
I watch television and finish all the pasta. I feel sick and heavy again. The phone rings.
I’m annoyed but I do pick up. It’s my girlfriend.
She says loads of sugar-covered things to me. She keeps on telling me I’m beautiful.
She must be lying for some obscure reason.
I know I’m not. I’m glad when the conversation is over. I have to go to the loo.
I need to get the damn pasta out.
It keeps coming up all the time, so I better go before my interior starts digesting it and uses
it to fill my fat cells even more.
The vomit looks like worms in blood. Millions of little white worms.
I have to go through the Evian scenario again before
brushing my teeth. I am dizzy and I feel weak. I should be exercising but I don’t have the strength.
I go back to the couch and lie down watching more television.
Some time around midnight I have regained some strength and force myself to the computer.
I have to write a mail to my girlfriend and make up some useful things I have done over the day.
I write those to other people, too: how I’ve been to uni and how I studied at home and
how I have cleaned. I look around me.
This place looks like a mess but nobody will ever know.
It’s late.
No, it’s actually already early since some peole in the front building are probably
getting up to get ready for work. They have a life and I don’t. But tomorrow everything
will be better since I will start on my diet. As the sun begings to rise I collapse into bed and fall asleep.
I’m still wearing my sleeping clothes.

Why did Mel Gibson make this film I wonder ! As if Christ hadn´t suffered enough ?
It´s pure TORTURE to watch. I spent 3 hours in absolute HELL watching this dreadful film,
which in my book should never have been made.

For what reason was this film made ? How vulgar and overly dramatic to make such a picture full of
pain and suffering of another human being (or God´s son as millions believe he is). I can see no
reason why this picture had to be made. I didn´t enjoy it for one moment and the actor who played
the lead role lacked the LOVE, Jesus is legendary for giving out to everyone he met.

A lot of people might have liked it, but why would an actor like Mel Gibson make such a film ONLY
about Jesus´ last moments with the most horrendous torture imaginable. If Gibson wanted to tell the
whole Jesus story (which has been done numerous times by Hollywood, but this time in the original
language, the only strong point in the movie) he should have made a trilogy about Christ´s childhood,
adult life, his message (which did not come across in this movie if you ask me) and all the
rest of what Jesus really was all about. Not just his suffering. That tells us more about
Mel Gibson´s view of story and how he loves to present all the pain to the movie audience,
as if the world didn´t have enough pain.

If there is any good message coming from this film, it should be a HUGE wake-up call for all those
people who run the world and makes war, and for the soldiers who torture and humiliate and
mistreat innocent prisoners.....to make them SEE what they are doing and make them understand
what unspeakable evilness they have inside of their cruel hearts, to make them do these unbelievable
things to other people. It´s been going on forever and is still happening every day, even as we speak.

Oscar Winner Sir Peter Ustinov Dies at 82

1 hour, 43 minutes ago, SUNDAY -- 28 March 2004

By JONATHAN FOWLER, Associated Press Writer

GENEVA - Sir Peter Ustinov (news), a brilliant wit and mimic who won two Oscars (news - web sites)
for an acting career that ranged from the evil Nero in "Quo Vadis" to the quirky Agatha Christie
detective Hercule Poirot, has died. He was 82.

• Peter Ustinov - biography and filmography (Yahoo! Movies)

Ustinov, a renaissance man whose talents included writing plays, movies and novels as
well as directing operas, also devoted himself to the world's children for more 30 years
as a goodwill ambassador for UNICEF (news - web sites).
He died of heart failure Sunday night in a Genolier clinic near his home at Bursins in Swiss
vineyards overlooking Lake Geneva, close friend Leon Davico, a former UNICEF spokesman,
told The Associated Press. "He was a great man. He was a human being. He was a unique person,
someone you could really count on," said Davico.
Born in London on April 16, 1921, the only son of a Russian artist mother and a
journalist father,
Ustinov claimed also to have Swiss, Ethiopian, Italian and French blood —
everything except English. Ustinov delighted in national differences and frequently
referred to them in his works and public appearances. He was — as he noted proudly in his
autobiography "Dear Me" — conceived in St. Petersburg, Russia, baptized in a village near
Stuttgart, Germany, and reared under a succession of Cameroonian, Irish and German nurses.

His imposing figure, variously described as resembling a teddy bear, a giant panda or a Georgian
frontage, began 12 pounds at birth and stayed with him throughout his career.
Ustinov made some 90 movies and also written books and plays.
He directed films,
plays and operas. His narration of Tchaikovsky's "Peter and the Wolf" won him a Grammy.
Among his film roles were a nomad in the outback who befriends a family in "The Sundowners,"
a one-eyed slave in "The Egyptian," Poirot in "Death on the Nile," and Abdi Aga, an illiterate tyrant
with pretensions of learning in "Memed My Hawk."

Ustinov won best supporting actor Oscars for the role of Batiatus, owner of the gladiator school
in "Spartacus" (1960), and as Arthur Simpson, an English small-time black marketeer in Turkey
who gets caught up in a jewel heist in "Topkapi" (1965). His Nero — the Roman emperor who presided
over the throwing of Christians to the lions — won him a Golden Globe for best supporting actor in
the 1951 movie "Quo Vadis."

He also won three television Emmys, portraying the English lexicographer Samuel Johnson in
"Dr. Johnson" and as Socrates in "Barefoot in Athens." In "A Storm in Summer," his Emmy
came for playing an aged Jewish delicatessen owner in Long Island at grips with racial
prejudice in the shape of a proud black youth. He directed, wrote the screenplay and starred
in the 1962 movie "Billy Budd." He was performing by age 3, mimicking politicians of the
day when his parents invited Ethiopian Emperor Haile Selassie for dinner.
His first attempts at acting were in the disguise of a pig in a dramatized nursery rhyme, as Friar
Tuck of Robin Hood fame and as one of three nymphs tempting Ulysses from an Aegean beach.
"Ulysses wisely passed us by," he recalled. He was educated at the prestigious Westminster School,
but hated it. Ustinov left Westminster at 16.
He appeared in his first revue and had his first stage play presented in London in 1940,
when he was 19.
Ustinov turned producer at 21 when he presented "Squaring the Circle" shortly before he
entered the British army in 1942.
If his plays had a continuing theme, it was a celebration of the little man
bucking the system.
One of his most successful was "The Love of Four Colonels" which ran for two years in
London's West End. Davico, who was starting his career with UNICEF, asked Ustinov to join
the U.N. children's agency as a goodwill ambassador after seeing the play.
Ustinov later became a staunch advocate for UNESCO (news - web sites), the United Nations
(news - web sites) Educational, Scientific and Cultural Organization. "He never said no to
anything UNICEF or the rest of United Nations asked him to do," said Davico.
Davico said Ustinov recently attended a UNICEF event despite needing a wheelchair —
sciatica gave him trouble walking, and diabetes left him with 30 percent vision and foot problems.

Ustinov's long service as a United Nations goodwill ambassador led U.N. Secretary-
General Kofi Annan (news - web sites) to joke that Ustinov was the man
to take over from him.
He later set up a foundation dedicated to understanding between people across the globe
and between generations.
"I think knowing people is the best way of getting rid of prejudices. When I was young,
I was brought up in an atmosphere which was just loaded with prejudices," he said in 2001.
More recently he was the voice of Babar the Elephant, played the role of
a doctor in the
film Lorenzo's Oil, and in 1999 appeared as the Walrus to Pete Postlethwaite's
Carpenter in a
multimillion-dollar TV movie version of "Alice in Wonderland."
Michael Winner, who directed Ustinov as Poirot in the 1988 movie
"Appointment With Death,"
described the actor as a "marvelous man, a great wit, a great raconteur,
a man of the world."
"He was a very good actor but he wasn't used as an actor as much as he should have been
because he became famous as Peter Ustinov," Winner told The Associated Press
in a telephone interview.
Ustinov treated getting older the way he treated everything else in his life — as another
experience to be added to his repertoire of anecdotes, quips and material for books.
When he turned 60 in 1981, Ustinov was asked if he was tempted to take things a little easier.
"I only feel 59," he said.
"But what really surprises me," he added, "is that I don't say many different things now than
I did when I was 20. The only difference is that having white hair means that people tend to listen
now while they never did before."
It was an attitude that stayed with him as he turned 80.
"Why should one slow down? I don't quite understand it," he said in an interview with
The Associated Press in 2001.
When he was knighted by the Queen of England in 1990, his main worry was how to reply
to the invitation from Buckingham Palace.
"The invitation said, 'Delete whichever is inapplicable: I can kneel — I cannot kneel.'
But there was nothing for those who can kneel but not get up," Ustinov recalled.
But he remained active until close to his death, playing himself in the 2003
TV movie "Winter Solstice."
Ustinov was married three times, and is survived by his four
children and his third wife.
He had one daughter with his first wife, Isolde Denham, from whom he was divorced in
1950 after a decade-long marriage.
He married Suzanne Cloutier in 1954. They had two daughters and a son —
noted sculptor Igor Ustinov. The couple divorced in 1971, the year they moved to Switzerland.
Ustinov married his third wife, Helene du Lau d'Allemans, in 1972.
No immediate details funeral arrangements were available.
_________________________________________________
Associated Press reporters Ben Dobbin and Naomi Koppel contributed to this report.

WHAT YOU HAVE MEANT TO ME IS NOT TO BE DESCRIBED.
THE WORLD AND MY OWN WORLD HAS LOST ONE OF THE GREATEST
AND MOST GIFTED PEOPLE, SOLDIERS OF PEACE AND A GENIOUS NOT
TO BE REACHED !
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING !!!

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I wrote a song called “DESTINY” and one called “CONFRONTATIONS”…about my life.

“I was born under a very special star…surrounded by an aura you can see from near and far.
Every single moment of my life is like dream….full of strange coincidences…
I´m trying to find out what it means.
And we´re searching for a place to be….finding a power to give us eternal energy……
Oh life is our Destiny”
…………and more..more more, because no matter how much I am trying to tell people
about the things that are happening in my life…or the songs and stories I write,
it will NEVER be anywhere near the real experiences and fascinating adventures life is
constantly offering me.

I was different from all the other children when I was a child….
very independent spirit-child…..
like a visitor from outer space….and alien….a cosmic individual born
on this earth in a male body.

I got older, but was still equally different from everyone else, and not only from my
kids in my own agegroup,
but just in general.

I always saw things, other people didn´t see….I always went through things a lot of
people couldn´t relate to.
I always felt like an outsider, and was treated like one all the time too. Later on
I found that to be an absolute asset, whereas in the beginning I was very sad about not
feeling like I was fitting in anywhere.

I was strong, quite demanding, and craved quite a considerable mount
of attention as a child.

I was a loner and much older and mature than my years…
and looked older too.
When I was 7 years old I had my first sexual experience, and a lot of
people thought I was 10.
When I was 11, people thought I was 14….and when I was 15, people thought I was 20…..
and since I was 21,
a lot of people have guessed me to be late 20´s early 30´s.

I have always had to face a good deal of obstacles, and I have lived in a very analysing
and psychological world
since my childhood and had a strong connection with spirituality, which must NOT
be confused with religion, cos those two unfortunately doesn´t always go hand in hand.

A lot of religious people are often full of fear and narrow-minded cruelty…
and even though some of them
preach wise words of spirituality, they do just the opposite, and have no idea
whatsoever to live the life they preach.

The spiritual connection came to me by itself. I don´t recall seeking for it,
at least not consciously. I am actually an agnostic, brought up by an atheist father
and a new-wave astrological mother, who actually introduced me to the
spiritual world.

THINGS began to happen in my life at an early stage. I had to meet certain
people, and go through things
and situations, that I later on discovered, obviously was exactly the right pieces
in my life´s big puzzle…
a sure thing: OF COURCE I had to have these experiences. It allll fits together.
The people we meet….
our love affairs, friends, family relations, work, problems, happiness,
travels and people we meet. Now, I have learned to wish for things or people
and situations….and it/they will materialize/appear within a quite
short period of time.

I can feel when certain people are near….when things will happen,
when a person is good for me or not.
I SEEE !!! I see LIFE ! I see people ! I see EVERYTHING !!!
I may also analyze life too much, but that
deffinately does not keep me from having new, exiting and even super natural encounters
and adventures, even if some things are only little “unexplainable” “coincidences”.

I have been told many different things about myself, by MANY different and
interesting people from all walks of life.

Speaking of different walks of life……I have always LOVED the finest grand
upper-class lifestyle, and the lowest out-casts of the low-class…..
but I have always loathed the middle-class !!!
They are the dominating majority in the western world, and deffinately in
my home country Denmark.
The working-class as they are called. I guess I am also part of the NORMAL
working-class, but I never felt like I was.

If people don´t fit in...in the working-middle-class,
there seems to be no golden way.

That is why I love the more exstreme. The delightfully intriguing difference
between the posh and the trashy…
and the many underground societies both politically, sexually, religiously and spiritually.

EXSTREME personalities and fascinating human beings always came to me
and I was drawn to them too.
It was often the more experimental and the “very mental” individuals who graced
my life with their presence.
The wonderfully crazy-spacy-fun-in-the-sun-artistic-life-explorers like myself !!!
I also sometimes find myself
in the company of the more explodingly exploitive type !!!

BUT, I never fit in under just one group of people…I simply allow myself to be
everywhere life takes me, if I find it interesting….and see life from so many angles.
A total expectator voyeur and my friends includes
everyone and everything FROM: Artists, bikers, nuns, whores, punks, businessmen,
religious cult followers,
porn-stars, soldiers, goth´s, writers/singers/actors……
TO: Political activists, computer nerds, lawyers, health
specialists and unimplyees….who just wasn´t born to work and have
a so-called normal job !!!

These great people are all friends of mine, and I know a lot of wonderful people
and I have some friends
who means more to me than anything in life…..
but some of my closest friends are actually the most nomal
ones with a very normal job and a normal life…..but they have something absolutely
divine about them which makes me love them.

EVERYTHING happens for a reason…..and the people we meet……
we meet for a reason.
They might not all be there forever, but they will be there for as long as we need them.
Until the circle is completed.
It´s not just plain coincidences that certain things are happening……
there is a red shread…a red line between
all of the people we know and situations we find ourselves in. We are combined….
and our magnetic aura field attracted us to whatever soul or situation we come across in this life….
or perhaps in alllll over lives, if we talk reincarnation.

going inside, in and out, up and down, that´s no sin...so just begin...
and then you will win...and your head will spin.

it´s not just the union between man and woman, it´s the chase,
the need, the need to belong, the need to be loved, the need to
clime a mountain of insane desire, a fountain of body juices blending
together and climaxing with the great anticipated and needed explosion.

why fear your sexuality, no matter what and who you are attracted to.
be glad you are a
fantastic sexual being. sexplore the world and don´t be ashamed
of your sexual intensity.

but to be faithful in a relationship is for me very important.
i need to belong and to be loved
and worshipped, almost like a GOD, ha ha......i am not ashamed of that.
i am the king of my own beloved´s world. in her life i am the male ruler.
we unite and unite and unite, we love and we sacrifiZe.

sexual activity is MEKKA, NIRVANA, HEAVEN, The MOON,
The SUN.........everything !!!!!!!!!

Dette er en egocentrisk, dyrisk, sindssyg verden – et vanvittigt ”indfald” fra GUD´s side. GUD !!! Hvem ???

HAM der tillader krige, pinsler, psykopater, åndsvage kærlighedsforhold og magtbegærlige krigsliderlige diktatorer.

Jeg synes at jeg SÉR verden. Jeg synes at jeg sér hele verden foran mig. OG alle de mennesker jeg møder.

Jeg føler mig spirituel – og såååå uendeligt magtesløs overfor alle disse fordærvede krafter der er på spil.

Jeg elsker jorden og dens mangfoldighed. Men vores frygt skaber splid. Frygten skaber lidelser.
Frygten skaber hærskesyge sataner.
Frygten skaber også religion....for vi ka da ikke bare være døde og ha´
levet forgæves hvis vi bliver slået ihjel ???

Hvornår går det op for menneskene at de bare er dyr ? Simple dyr, med dyriske drifter.
Dyr med højere stående intelligens.
Dyr der parer sig dejligt og intenst i flæng. Sex er skønt og eventyrligt.
Sex er drivkraften bag mange.

Mange mennesker lever for at elske, og mange elsker for at leve......
ligesåvel som mange mennesker omvendt spiser for at leve
og andre lever for at spise..........som små fede grise.....ligesom slikke Lise fra Karise,
der åd så hun måtte fise !

Forhåbentligt er der mange der nyder at lever i denne verden, hvis de vel og mærke
undlader at se TV-Avis med de mange rædsler,
som var det en film af Alfred Hitchcock med Freddie Krueger i hovedrollen.

Og...nu siger de oven i købet at det bare var et trick at man har været på Månen...
det var ikke virkelighed. INGEN har været på Månen,
det var bare det var bare et af filmhistoriens største tricks, for at USA igen kunne vise deres magt og
evindelige ”væren på forkant med
tiden” overfor hele menneskeheden der i 1969 kiggede med ”live” på fjerneren.

Gud hvor GUD må more sig over alle dem der står for skud og ender som en optrævlet karklud.

Der er ingen at stole på, udover vores gamle Mor.......og hun er ej heller altid en Moder Teresa.

Er der virkeligt nogen mennesker overhovedet man ka´ ta´ for givet i sit liv ???

Vi er jo ikke herre over vores egen skæbne.......kun med gode tanker kan vi lede os selv på den
rette vej til det bedst mulige liv.

TÆNK.....TÆNK engang at nogle mennesker faktisk har været herre over andres skæbne....
og bestemt at et andet menneske måtte
ikke længere blive ved med at leve !!!

Det er en ufattelig tanke. Uhyggeligt og skræmmende.......og så er der midt i det hele nogen
der er arrogante: ”Jeg ved mér end dig” –
Tjuhej – GU GØR DE EJ !!!

Hindus outraged by Tina Turner's role as goddess
By Rajeev Syal and Ishara Bhasi
(Filed: 07/03/2004)

Tina Turner, the rock star, has enraged Hindus in Britain by agreeing to play an Indian goddess
in a new British film production. Shakti represents female power and energy
She will portray Shakti, the symbol of female power and energy, in The Goddess, a film to be made by
Ismail Merchant and James Ivory, the Anglo-Indian duo best known for A Room with a View,
Howards End and The Remains of the Day.
Hindu organisations in Britain are threatening to picket cinemas that show the film,
claiming that Ms Turner's sexually charged stage image is inappropriate for the role.

Tina Turner's 'sexually charged' image is 'inappropriate'
Hasmukh Shah, the chairman of Vishwa Hindu Parishad UK, a fundamentalist group, said:
"These people would not dare to portray anything to do with Islam, but Hindus are easy targets for them.
Our liberal attitude is taken for granted and our tolerance is exploited. But when pushed,
Hindus will become intolerant.
"Why don't they get a rock star to portray the Prophet Mohammed and see the wrath of Muslims?
They wouldn't dare. Casting Tina Turner is insensitive and we won't stand for it."
In Hinduism, Shakti is the female aspect of divinity and a manifestation of energy who is
worshipped in temples across India. Shakti is often worshipped in various forms such as the
goddesses Devi, Kali, Parvati and Lakshmi.
Hindu Human Rights, another British-based Hindu organisation, is circulating a petition to be
presented to Merchant-Ivory Productions condemning the film.
It criticises the choice of Ms Turner because of her reputation as a sex symbol.
"We have no quarrel with Ms Turner as such, but because of her reputation as a
'sex icon' it is improper to cast her," it reads. So far, they have gained 1,000 signatures.
Ms Turner, 65, has already toured India to steep herself in its culture.
She has been a Buddhist for more than 20 years.
In the film, she will sing Indian classical songs in English, Latin and Sanskrit
composed by Zakir Hussain, India's leading performer of the tabla, a small set of drums.
She is also learning classical dance for the film, which will also feature Matthew Modine,
star of Le Divorce.

Ms Turner is famed for her highly charged stage shows dating back to the
1960s when she first appeared with Ike, her then husband.
Her hit songs include River Deep Mountain High, What's Love Got To Do With It?
and GoldenEye, the theme to the James Bond film. Her acting roles include appearing alongside
Mel Gibson in the film Mad Max: Beyond Thunderdome.
Mr Merchant last week defended the choice of Ms Turner.
"Shakti is the centre of female energy, and anyone who has seen
Tina Turner on stage knows that the energy she radiates is incredible," he said.
Mr Merchant, an Indian-born Muslim, said that some critics might actually harbour
racist views because Ms Turner is of African descent.
There is no suggestion, however, that either Vishwa Hindu Parishad UK or
Hindu Human Rights hold racist views.
Ms Turner said: "India is special to me, and I hope I can do the role some justice."

GRÆNSEPSYKOSERNE

1: Usikkert selvbillede og identitetsfølelse (“hvem er jeg”).
Ofte en kronisk følelse af indre tomhed og livslede.

2: Primitivt, skrøbeligt forsvar centreret omkring splitting,
benægten og projektiv identifikation.

3: Letvagt angst, svigtende impulskontrol og svigtende evne til sublimering -
det vil sige svigtende evne til at forvalte driftsimpulser i konstruktiv retning -
betinget af et svagt, uudviklet ego.

4: Paranoide og hypokondre forestillinger.

5: Voldsomme humørsvingninger og letvakt aggressionsberedskab.
Aggressioner er ofte den dominerende følelse.

6: Mikro-psykotiske episoder. Under pres bliver den grænsepsykotiske
patient let psykotisk i kortere perioder.

7: Forholdet til andre er præget af kontaktambivalens, hvilket betyder,
at den grænsepsykotiske både vil og ikke vil have en nærhed.
Er vedkommende for “langt” fra den anden, giver det en følelse af forladthed.
Bliver forholdet for tæt, udløses angst.

8: “Orale reaktionsformer”. Ofte ses stof- og alkoholmisbrug samt tvangsspisning.
Mange bulimikere og anorektikere har en grundlæggende
grænsepsykotisk personlighedsstruktur.

9: Ofte ses usikker kønsidentitet, afvigende seksuelle fantasier og behov,
der kan virke skræmmende på patienten. Ikke sjældent ses en
sammenblanding af orale, anale og genitiale fantasier farvet af sadomasochistiske træk.

10: Diskrete tankeforstyrrelser, vaghed i tænkningen og en snørklet,
privat sprogbrug der kan være svær at opdage i almindelig samtale,
men optræder tydeligt i psykologisk testning.

1: En svingende selvfølelse. Det ene øjeblik er individet domineret af
følelsen af almagt og ufejlbarlighed for i det næste øjeblik at føle dyb afmagt,
skam, mindreværd og selvhad.

2: Stor sårbarhed overfor kritik.

3: En indre følelse af tomhed, manglende livslyst og meningløshed.
Oplevelsen af et diffust savn, rastløshed og manglende engagement.
Dette resulterer ofte i en stadig jagt efter stimulanser og lystoplevelser,
som kan give intensitet og livsfylde.

4: Hypokonder-klager. Grundlaget for en optagethed af egne kropsfunktioner
er en panisk angst for fysisk forfald og for at blive gammel.

5: Et umætteligt behov for andres opmærksomhed og beundring.
Et stadigt eksisterende behov for at være i centrum med stor sensibilitet
overfor andres meninger og reaktioner, hvilket står i dyb kontrast til en
påfaldende mangel på dyb interesse og indføling i andre.

6: Et forstyrret forhold til andre mennesker. Andre bliver typisk
opfattet som rekvisitter i den narcissistiske persons iscenesættelse af sit liv.
Forholdet til andre er ofte præget af en dyb mangel på respekt;
og forholdet til andre veksler - i lighed med selvopfattelsen -
imellem urealistisk idealisering og voldsom devaluering.

7: Angst for afhængighed. Den narcissistiske personlighed har behov
for andres kærlighed og beundring for at blive bekræftet, men huser
dyb angst for at blive afhængig og derved udsætte sig for faren for at
kunne blive svigtet.

8: Tilstedeværelsen af uforarbejdet misundelse, jalousi og vrede
overfor andre, som besidder noget, individet selv mangler.

9: Hyppigt ses seksuelle forstyrrelser. Seksuallivet er ofte tilsyneladende
rigt med flere skiftende partnere, men i virkeligheden er det mangelfuldt,
fordi evnen til egentlig seksuel tilfredsstillelse og dybere kontaktt til andre
er mangelfuld. Dette hænger sammen med, at den narcissistiske personlighed
reagerer med angst på alt, som truer kontrollen over det svage jeg.
Det seksuelle samvær bliver oftere en aspontan præstationsorienteret
affære med henblik på at stabilisere selvfølelsen.

10: Som følge af de ovennævnte punkter, men også på grund af
splitting- forsvar, projektiv identifikation og benægten,
ses hyppigt en usikker identitetsfølelse.